First Marriage Then Love 《先婚厚爱》Chapter 118 Translation

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118 I love you

Without Su Yi Cheng, and with father Su and Grandpa Su also in the army,  lunch is with only An Ran, Qin Yun and Su Yi Jiao the three people at the  lunch table.

"An Ran, come, you are too thin, eat more." Qin Yun placed a large piece of  meat in An Ran's bowl, then take a bowl of soup for her to drink.

"Mom, I, let me do it myself." An Ran was a little embarrassed. She should  be the one serving her instead. She is her elder after all, but now she is  serving her instead. No matter what she feel embarrassed to think about it.

"It's fine." Qin Yun smiled and brought the big bowl of fish soup to her.  She seemed to read her mind and said, "An Ran, don't be embarrassed and  restrained, treat this place like it's your own home."

"I am not being restrained." An Ran smiled, a little embarrassed. In fact,  she was very comfortable in the Su family. Qin Yun was not a mother-in-law  who put on airs. She was very good to her. She did not give her any  pressure. Even Su Yi Cheng had several times gotten jealous and told her  that once her mother had a daughter-in-law she forgot about her son.

It is said that the mother-in-law relationship is the most difficult to get  along with, but she can meet with such a good mother-in-law, she is really  lucky. She is not superstitious, but she is somewhat grateful to the  heavens, thankful for meeting such a good man and a good family. She really  feels that she is very lucky and seems to have been taken care of.

"SIL, tell us how you and my brother get to know each other, talk about how  you fall in love." Su Yi Jiao took the green beans in her mouth and asked  while munching.

"Erm..." An Ran, for a long time, can't say a single word, how can she say  that she got married to Su Yi Cheng due to a big blunder!

"Yeah, tell us about it." Qin Yun seems to be particularly interested in the  love history. In fact, she had introduced countless girls to Su Yi Cheng.  Almost every time, she was stopped by Su Yi Cheng and he had never seen a  single girl she had introduced him to. With his boring personality, she once  thought that it would be impossible for him to marry within the next few  years. However, she did not expect that he would bring her a daughter-in-law  suddenly.

"Actually, in fact..." An Ran swallowed, embarrassed to speak.

Su Yi Jiao and Qin Yun looked at her and waited for her to speak.

An Ran took a deep breathe and said. "Actually we knew each other through a  blind date, but I got the wrong person and was mistaken."

Both Qin Yun and Su Yi Jiao were dazed. They looked at her for a while and  then reacted. Su Yi Jiao fixedly looked at An Ran and said with suspicion,  "So you two meet due to a mistake?" She thought that maybe they met at a  dinner party, or got to know each other after the introduction of someone,  but she didn’t expect this. She didn’t expect it to be a mistake!

Qin Yun patted her own thigh heavily, and excitedly said, "Oh my God, why  didn't I think of it? I should have used these tricks to deal with Ah Cheng,  or I won't have to wait so long for him to marry, maybe I could have already  been a grandmother now."

An Ran was a little dumbfounded, and it seemed her answer disappointed them.

"Then what happened?" Su Yi Jiao asked gossiping,"You knew each other, and  then started to date?"

An Ran pursed her dry lips, acknowledging her words somewhat unnaturally and  nodded. Of course she could not tell her that she only knew that she got the  wrong person after she had gotten the marriage certificate! If so she would  really have to find a hole and hide in it.

"Tch, that's so old-fashioned. I thought yours would be more romantic." Su  Yi Jiao snorted bored, this is completely different from what she had  imagined. It is not romantic at all.

An Ran just laughed, thinking that if she had told her that she and Su Yi  Cheng had no falling in love process at all but got married immediately,  and there was even no courtship at all, then would she think that the old- fashioned procedure of first knowing, then courtship and lastly marriage is  actually romantic after all. However, when it comes to courtship, there  seems to be something missing between them. She clearly remembers that  someone had vowed and told her that they were going to fall in love, but  till now she has only received flowers once, had a candlelight dinner once,  watched half a movie, then nothing after that!

"What does a child like you know? Plain and simple is the best. Falling in  love and getting married being together means the two have to live together.  You think that you can hug romance and eat it like rice?" Qin Yun looked at  her daughter annoyed.

"What? I am already 26, I am not a child anymore, why are you treating me  like a child!" Su Yi Jiao protested dissatisfied, muttering, lips pouting,  her eyes wide open. Looking at her like this, she looks really childish.

Qin Yun didn't even look at her and said directly," As long as you're not  married, you are a child in my eyes. No matter how old you are, you can't  change the fact that you were born from me."

Su Yi Jiao looked at Qin Yun for a while, but eventually relented, and  looked away pouting.

Qin Yun did not look at her, and took more food to An Ran, saying,"An Ran,  eat more."

An Ran could only nod and smile bitterly as she looked at the bowl of rice  and the large bowl of vegetables. An Ran could only try her best and started  eating.

After lunch, Qin Yun was suddenly called by the wife of the deputy commander  of the army, and had to go to help out.

An Ran was a little bored and walked around the yard to spend her time. Then  when it got really bored, and she started to feel a little sleepy, she  started for Su Yi Cheng’s original room to lie down and sleep for a while.

Su Yi Jiao's room is next door to Su Yi Cheng, so to go to Su Yi Cheng's  room, one must pass by the door of Su Yi Jiao's room.

Perhaps it is due to the pregnancy, drowsiness can hit her pretty hard, in  addition she had woken up very early in the morning, and at this moment, An  Ran yawns repeatedly. Su Yi Jiao’s door did not seem to be shut. When An Ran  passed, she heard her crying, and she was stunned, and jolted her awake from  her drowsiness. Following the sound, she saw Su Yi Jiao in the room from  the gap in the unlocked door. She was sitting on the bed and crying,  sounding very depressed.

"Knock knock knock...." An Ran politely knocked on the door.

In the room, Su Yi Jiao heard someone coming and suddenly raised her head  and took the back of her hand to wipe the tears on her face. Then there was  an unnatural voice calling at the door, "Come in." Of course, even if she  cover it up, the voice still carries a faint crying tone.

An Ran pushed the door in and saw the paper and photos that had been thrown  in front of the bed. Su Yi Jiao seemed to react to this, and suddenly  climbed up from the bed, and quickly picked up the photos on the ground  before An Ran came over. Then looked up a little unnaturally and looked at  An Ran. She said with a stiff face and said, "Sis, sis in law, did you have  something for me?"

An Ran looked at her, but at the moment she does not feel sleepy at all.  Shaking her head faintly, she just go forward, pull the paper towel on the  bedside table and hand it over to her. "Would you like to talk to me?"

Su Yi Jiao knew that she couldn’t fake it anymore. She reached out and took  the paper towel she had handed over, pouted, and shook her head petulantly.

An Ran glanced at the photos that she hadn't had time to tidy up. It was a  photo of Su Yi Cheng, Ye Zi Wen and Su Yi Jiao. In the photo, Su Yi Jiao  stood in the middle, holding Su Yi Cheng and Ye Zi Wen each in one hand on  both sides. She smiled very happily. She suddenly remembered that Su Yi  Cheng said that she liked Ye Zi Wen, and then looking at her present  expression, she can vaguely guess the reason for her tears.

Su Yi Jiao followed her gaze. Only then did she find a photo that was left  on the ground, and muttered, dissatisfied, said, "What, you have seen it."  She reached out and took the photo back petulantly .

An Ran chuckled and sat down beside her."Then would you like to talk?"

Su Yi Jiao looked at her for a while, then turned and slowly said, "SIL, it  is so hard to like a person, now that I think about it, actually being like  you and brother is actually quite good, my mother is right, plain and simple  is what is real. There's no need for dramas and fireworks, as long as you  know each other's hearts, even very small things can be very sweet." Turned  her head and looked at her, her mouth said with a bitter smile, "But if it  is only a one sided love, one that will never be requited it is really very  very hard, I have a feeling of not being able to walk out of it." Speaking  of this, her finger gently touched the face of Ye Zi Wen in the picture.

Su Yi Jiao went on to say, "He seems to forever treat me as only a child. I  will always only be a neighboring little sister. Although he knows my heart  and how I feel and know that I have grown up now, know that I am a grown  woman now and not that crybaby little girl anymore. But he just didn’t want  to accept my feelings for him. He said that what I have is only a kind of  admiration and obsession when I was a child and it is not real love.” Su Yi  Jiao sniffles her nose hard, trying not to let her tears drop from her  eyelids. "Am I not even able to distinguish my feelings? I know that my  love for him is real love, it is the feeling between lovers! SIL, what to I  do? He always hides from me. I feel a little tired now. I used to think that  I would never get tired, but I have been chasing behind him all this while.  During this time, I really feel tired and feel that I can't go on anymore."

An Ran lightly sighed, reached out and touched her head. After Lin Li’s  event, she deeply realized that love requires both sides to happen. A one  sided love will never be responded to even if you give in to the other party  for a lifetime, and if you do that you are just doing wrong to yourself. She looked at her for a while, and then  faintly said, "If you are tired, then  just stop, you don't always have to force and suffer by yourself."

Su Yi Jiao looked at her, and was not able to respond for a while.

An Ran continued, "Feelings is a matter for two parties. It is impossible to  rely solely on only one party's efforts. To love someone is not to give  everything for the other person. It cannot be just to indulge in the other  party and cause grieve to yourself. If you had really worked hard but was  not able to get his response, then we have to consider whether it is time to  let go."

"But..." Su Yi Jiao looked at her, and her tears could not help but fall.  "But, I really like him. This kind of love started from an early age. I like  him for almost 20 years now. Liking him has become a part of my life."

"If someday he comes back with another woman, what are you going to do? Are  you still going to hide and cry like now?" An Ran asked her, although the  hypothetical question was cruel, but she did not want Su Yi Jiao to become  the second Lin Li, so instead of waiting until later when she would be in  pain. It is better to persuade her to let go now.

Su Yi Jiao was stunned, seemingly never thought about this problem. For so  many years, she has been chasing behind Ye Zi Wen, and although Ye Zi Wen  has been hiding from her, and has always stressed that he only look at her  as a little sister, but she has never seen any women around him. She had  never thought that Ye Zi Wen would be with other women, but what if he  really had another woman?

"Yijiao, try to let go first, at least don't keep chasing after him, no  matter how much you like him, if he really doesn't give both of you a  chance, then why should force it? Feelings can never be forced.” An Ran  comforted her and wished her to really understand.

Su Yi Jiao lingered for a long time, only slowly turned around, looking at  An Ran, her expression was a little empty, said, "SIL, I am so tired, I want  to sleep for a while."

An Ran knows that these words are quite heavy, and she needs time to digest  what she has just said. Nodded and patted her hand. "En, take a good rest,  don't think too much."

"En." Su Yi Jiao gently responded, but did not look up, eyes staring  straight at the photo in her hand.

An Ran didn’t say anything more, turned and left the room, and closed the  door.

Suddenly she felt a little bit emotional, at the same time also felt a  little gratified. She was glad that she met Su Yi Cheng. She didn’t know if  what they have is real love, but she could feel his concern and care for  her, and she was also feeling like their feelings for each other are getting  stronger and stronger as the days past, she can faintly realize that it is  not just a simple like, or just feeling good around each other, maybe, just  maybe, it could be real love!

This kind of realization was too sudden, even An Ran herself was somewhat  shocked by it, but she soon feel relieved, reaching out and caressing her  stomach, although nothing can be felt now, but she feels inexplicable  touched, for him as well as for herself.

Suddenly she wanted to hear his voice immediately and wanted to tell him  what she had been thinking at the moment.

Action followed once she thought about it. When the phone was connected, An  Ran suddenly had stage fright, but the moment she wanted to hang up, the  phone was answered. Su Yi Cheng’s warm and low voice was transmitted from  the phone,"Hello, An Ran?"

The stage fright that happen because of the fear disappeared upon hearing  his voice, holding the phone sitting in the room and bed where he had slept,  she replied with a chuckle, "Yes, still busy?"

"En, but I will be back in the evening." After receiving her call, Su Yi  Cheng’s mood seemed to be good, with a faint smile in his voice.

"Su Yi Cheng." An Ran called him with his full name.

"En?"

Taking a deep breath and be fully prepared for what she was about to say  next, but her heartbeat is somewhat uncontrollable, and her face is slightly  hot. She felt that her face must be red again at this moment.

Not hearing her reply, Su Yi Cheng called with some uncertainty, "An Ran?"

"I, I love you." She almost hang up the phone at the same time she finished  talking. Her face seems to be hotter than before. She was afraid that he  would call back and she didn't know what to say. She quickly removed the  phone's battery. Then kept rubbing her face with her hands, hoping to lower  the heat on her face.

Looking at the dismantled mobile phone and battery, she remembered what she  did just now and shook her head smiling, mumbling,"Why should I hang up the  phone? I should just ask him if he loves me or not too." After saying that  she patted her face, her face feels extremely warm, and finally she got up  and went to the bathroom to wash her face, which only slightly lowered the  heat.

After the wash she then sat down on the bed, reaching and gently caressing  her belly, her mouth faintly smiling, talking to herself, "Baby, what do you  think Daddy's reaction was like?" Thinking and feeling that her current  behavior is simply so childish, shaking her head and not thinking about it  anymore. At this time, the sleepiness hits again, and slowly the eyelids  starts to get a bit heavy, and slowly closed. Hugging the pillow that Su Yi  Cheng used to sleep in, she slowly entered dreamland.

In her dream, someone seemed to have touched her gently, a hand slowly  stroked back and forth on her face, An Ran frowned and groaned without  waking up.

Then her lips felt a warm touch, the kiss that felt too familiar, that is  the way Su Yi Cheng likes to kiss her, but still she did not open her eyes,  but her body instinctively reacted to him, she slightly open her lips,  granting him access, her hand slowly lifted up, wrapped around him, and  gently called his name groggily,"Yi Cheng..."

The calling of the name seems to give a great encouragement to someone. The  kiss suddenly becomes heated, the strength intensifying, and the movement  becomes less gentle like just now and seems strongly wanting to pull her  whole person into himself and integrate with her.

An Ran was kissed till she got a little breathless. She opened her eyes and  looked at the magnified handsome face in front of her. She patted him and  whispered, "Yi, Yi Cheng, let, go, let me go, I can’t breathe. ."

Su Yi Cheng then let her go, watching her breathe while lying under him. In  fact, he's not much better off, his chest is also heaving up and down.  Stretching and gently caressing her face, looking at her, there is a kind of  glimmer in his eyes, gently calling her name besides her ear,"An Ran... An  Ran..." as he calls to her he places lights pecks on her face, gently, over  and over again as if he couldn’t kiss enough of her.

"Kekeke." The kiss started to get ticklish, and An Ran started laughing out,  her chest was still heaving because of the kiss just now. She smiled and  patted him. "Itchy, kekekeke, it's itchy."

After a while, Su Yi Cheng had finally had his fill of kisses and gently  turned her around and held her, and they were lying on the single bed that  was not too big. Su Yi Cheng buried his face in her shoulder. Smelling all  her sweet fragrance. He was tightly holding her, but the strength was well  controlled and did not hurt her.

"Are you done with your work?" In his arms, she asked softly, her lips with  a nice smile, a touch of satisfaction.

There was no answer, the person being hugged was held more tightly, and  after a while a gently call sounded in her ear,"An Ran..." The sound is  melodious, with a lingering taste.

“En?” An Ran responded gently, her hand gently being naughty and drawing  circles on his back.

Su Yi Cheng let go of her, slightly opened the distance between the two,  eyes fixedly looking at her eyes, and then very seriously asking,"Say it  again, say it one more time alright?"

An Ran paused slightly, did not respond, mystified,"En?" She did not know  what he meant.

Su Yi Cheng look at her steadily, the corner of his mouth was with a good- looking range, and the eyes seemed to be so gentle as to be able to draw out  water from, slowly asking. "Say again, say again what you just said on the  phone just now, I want you to look into my eyes as you say it." The tone is  very gentle, but the content of the words has a tone that cannot be refused.

It was only then that she remembered the phone call before sleeping, An  Ran’s face suddenly heated up and looked up at him, her face reddens. To let  her say it again, and even more so to be in front of him, looking at his  eyes, she is really embarrassed to say it.

Turning around with her big doeful black eyes, An Ran decided to fake it to  the end. "Did I called you just now?"

Looking at her, Su Yi Cheng laughed with lifted eyebrows. " You don't  remember?"

An Ran suddenly remembered the words that Lin Li had said at the time. She  said this. The act of faking it is definitely based on your own personal  attitude. If you are firm enough, you can fool others. Thinking about it, An  Ran nodded very firmly and say, "No impression at all!"

"Is that so?" Su Yi Cheng smiled and squeezed her nose, looked at her and  asked, "Would you like me to remind you?"

An Ran looked at him, not saying anything, but her face became redder.

Su Yi Cheng held in his smile, watching her eyes and he seem to be more firm  than just now, and then said, "An Ran, I love you." One word, one sentence,  letting An Ran hear it clearly and truly.

An Ran was stunned, seemingly forgetting to breathe, just looking at him,  her ears wrapped round the phrase 'I love you', it seems to be set into a  single loop, repeating over and over again within her ears.

Su Yi Cheng reached out, caressed her face and asked seriously, "With such a  hint, did you perhaps remember anything?"

An Ran suddenly felt the tip of her nose sour up, her face was no longer  red, but her eyelids began to feel heated. The tears were so uncontrollable  that they slipped down her cheeks, she stretched out and hit his chest  repeatedly. The typical tsundere* reaction, her heart feels so fluffy and  sweet she cannot take it but still she accused him while crying, "You are so  annoying!!"

Su Yi Cheng grabbed her hand and looked at her without moving. He asked  persistently, "Did you remember?"

An Ran nodded repeatedly and said, "I love you too."

Su Yi Cheng smiled, the smile on his face widen, and then he held her  tightly.

------End of Chapter------

tsundere* - J-novels readers will know this for sure, it's actually a  Japanese phrase to describe a person (normally girls but applies to boys as  well) when they do not say what they really mean or feel.

Hands up if you feel fluffy after reading this!


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